17th of June, 03:30 +- i'm ripped out of a nightmare. Thank goodness. Another freakin nightmare.
The last few months I've been plagued by nightmares... Nightmares of her, my ex. I broke her heart again and frankly I deserve these nightmares. But since they started I tried to get closure.
I cannot make contact, she ignores my emails and I lost her number (after a drunken incident) and also her sister, friends and family would not be happy to see me close to her.
But somehow I must gain closure, must end this torture. I hope she either moves on and let me know that she's forgiven me or maybe... just maybe let me make it up. Earn her forgiveness.
Another choice is to move on, on my own and just find a new love, forget about her and just live a new live... the choice is there, but I don't know when to turn.
For now, I'm just gonna try and gain a peacefull night's sleep.
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