Life's little...insane... challenges...

When I decided that this week was gonna be the turnaround I wanted, the rest of the world didn't get the memo. My pc, which helps with income, crashed. My scooter, which is my only transport, won't start. And my job, which is my other hope for keeping going on in the corporate world, is not rewarding my the way it should...

But even though all these negative things is happening, I can't let this rule me. I'm driven by a Greater power, a Divine power. One that does not measure me by my income, my status, my self-worth or even my progress in life.

All I need, to be 100% perfect, is to grow closer to my Lord God.

Now all those bible bashers, athiest and those who have not felt God's love in your life, this is the cross-roads point in life. Not your life. Life as a whole.

God is coming. Jesus is coming soon and he needs as all to be ready. And I don't mean that you are always in church, giving your 10% and helping grannies across the street. That is the side-effects of believing in your Lord God and His Almighty love. No, the point you should be at is were you can't breath without God's presence, His love motivates each heart beat and His purpose for you is clear in each step you take.

I myself struggle from time to time. Trying to blame the world. To hide behind the walls of life.

In the coming blog entries I will not only bring for some help or bring forth questions... but also how normal life constantly challenges believes in Jesus's love and ways.

The social media quest

So... I gotta get my skills up with Joomla, Wordpress and possibly drupal.

But most of all I have to build my skillset with social media sites/apps ... Twitter, Facebook, Flickr, Youtube, Blogger, Mxit, Myspace, Buzz, Laconica, Ping.fm, Hellotxt and the list keeps on growing...

Of course the optimal choice would be a way to combine them and just update on point and be automatically added to the rest...

So far I'm testing out twitterfeed.com.

And other good options out there?

more nightmares, but better life goals

okay so yes, the nightmares continue. good/bad things happening with me and my ex.

But at least in the last few weeks i have come to find more focus and view some goals. Thank God, cause I've been running around clueless looking for some direction.

Less gaming more studying. life is short and if I worry too much about what the people around me is doing I might just forget to enjoy it for myself.

If given a lot for friends. I've given up my true love, but that's a story for another day.

I'm gonna kick ass and take names. It's my turn to live life. And like barney from "how I met your mother", would say. "I'm awesome!"

peace out.

Early morning nightmares

17th of June, 03:30 +- i'm ripped out of a nightmare. Thank goodness. Another freakin nightmare.

The last few months I've been plagued by nightmares... Nightmares of her, my ex. I broke her heart again and frankly I deserve these nightmares. But since they started I tried to get closure.

I cannot make contact, she ignores my emails and I lost her number (after a drunken incident) and also her sister, friends and family would not be happy to see me close to her.

But somehow I must gain closure, must end this torture. I hope she either moves on and let me know that she's forgiven me or maybe... just maybe let me make it up. Earn her forgiveness.

Another choice is to move on, on my own and just find a new love, forget about her and just live a new live... the choice is there, but I don't know when to turn.

For now, I'm just gonna try and gain a peacefull night's sleep.